Hello! I am new here and I hope this is the right place for a question. I have been meditating on and off for 10 years and also been drinking Ayahuasca for 10 years.  Every now and again I come to this place where my state of consciousness changes and it feels like a very strong force comes and i loose control. If my attention is on my hands, it feels as strong and solid as a mountain - however fear also arises because its force / firmness is of magnitudes stronger than "me". I have also experiences this the one time i tried holotrophic breathing. otherwise i have a lot of dreams which are vivid and alive.

Hey Ingvar, welcome Could you help us understand better the intention of posting this? What are you hoping to get?

Control's like time. Only seems to exist when there's thoughts that it does. 

Time is cosmetic.

​​​​​​​Impermanence is your original face.

to lose control is to lose understanding. maybe you just realize that your understanding wasn't right? now that it's not useful anymore.

sounds like you're experiencing a re-start, a new beginning.

Hygge!