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So have now started structured practice. Also partnered up with a friend so we will remind eachother to practice and talk about our progress. To get going I'm using the Headspace app and its sessions. Feels like a good way to get started when one is a beginner in mindfullness. The guided meditations instructs in bodyscanning and awareness of breath.
Currently when bodyscaning and following breath I dont feel or experience anything I would say was out of the "ordinary". Also there is allmost no thoughts, that is that little voice, also no images. Sometimes there is a warm pressure from inside the forehead pushing out and up. Like something wanting to escape. Its feels like dizziness in a way.

Also trying to practice awareness of sensations and their nuances when doing things. mainly walking outside. That is feel the wind, the pressure on the feets etc. This sometimes generates a state of smiling and laughing. No clue as to why. The other day I was doing this when on a bus and I just sat there laughing to myself. Though it was not a very crowded bus so dont think people noticed, not that it really matters. Cant let other people be ones puppetmaster. Cut those strings.

I'll be writing here when I notice changes.

PS
Panda is a nickname I have. Hence the title =).

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11/20/14 2:20 PM as a reply to Andreas.
Currently when bodyscaning and following breath I dont feel or experience anything I would say was out of the "ordinary". Also there is allmost no thoughts, that is that little voice, also no images. Sometimes there is a warm pressure from inside the forehead pushing out and up. Like something wanting to escape. Its feels like dizziness in a way.
That's interesting... when I don't meditate for a period of time of more than 1 week, I get this. Everytime. Perhaps it's the mind getting back into the groove of paying attention.

Thanks for your commitment emoticon

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11/22/14 5:28 PM as a reply to Andreas.
I have now joined a local Chan sangha. They have meditation sessions 3+ times a week. Once a month theres is day of 8 hours meditation and silence. Also qigong, suttra studies, movie nights and what not. Think this can work out nicely.

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11/28/14 10:55 AM as a reply to Andreas.
Had strange experience when meditating today. Didnt last long. Felt a slight drop, my breathing dissappeared, the darkness behind eyes became gray and there was small patches of light floating downwards. No bodily sensations really. Strange feeling but felt nice.

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12/10/14 5:14 PM as a reply to Andreas.
Other experiences that has happened sometime during meditation is light source shining when I have closed eyes. Floatiness of limbs. Like when you stand in a doorway and press the arms to the sides and then go out and they start to move upwards. That was the feeling.

I have now participated in local chan sangha mediation. Will try to make it regular though its very self-study oriented. A little noisy and lots of incence. But suppose thats good for concentration practice atleast =). Will try out the local tibethan sangha as well. They practice shine meditation andĀ Chenrezig Puja