Jenny:
Bernd the Broter:[...] This person would read these lines and (rightly) understand: "Here is someone who tried to practice noting. They obviously got the dynamics wrong or are one of the few people for whom noting just won't work well.[...]
You several times in this thread appeal to authority to circumvent (I guess) lack of experience using noting, or not using noting, in EQ to get to path and fruition.
Hi Jenny,
I actually did answer this question as soon as you asked, right after Nick jumped in.
To be most precise: I only practiced insight meditation doing noting as instructed in Ajahn Tong's tradition. (after trying Goenka and abandoning it, that is)
I have never practiced in Eq by dropping the noting as I pretty much wouldn't even know what to do then.
My experience is that just continuing noting in Eq everytime deepened the meditation without exception.
In July 2012, at the end of my 2nd retreat in this tradition, which I did at home, I received what I still think was fruition. I did this by following the instructions as meticulously as possible which included keeping the noting all the time. My memory (and my Dho-writeup) about it isn't too good any more; it could be that the noting dropped by itself in the seconds/minutes before conformity knowledge, but I didn't do it on purpose. Even if it did, this doesn't say anything about the development of the whole, grand equanimity nana during the days before, which was still driven by doing noting.
In later retreats I didn't get too fruition yet, but everytime I got to Eq, it deepened considerably by just continuing noting. I wrote above some reasons why noting is helpful in Eq. Another reason is that it makes the recognition of not-self easy. I've seen this referred to as the 'here/no, over-there'-game on this board, and that captures it quite well. Syncronizing the dancing self-perspective seems to be made easy with noting.
You state again just above that my own advice must come out of my own incompetence at using the noting technique at all.
Not true.
In my example, I would have assigned you to the 2nd sorts of people: those for whom noting doesn't work.
I had (obviously incorrectly) remembered that you tried to do noting, but it exacerbated this aura migraine thing so badly that you had to do something else. I remember vaguely your vivid descriptions from your first (?) thread where you described those side effects which sounded completely out-of-this-world for almost everyone.
So if those were actually effects from dropping the labeling, I apologize for mixing that up.
However, that example wasn't really tailored to you. As I said, I've seen similar statements elsewhere, and I was/am especially irritated with Kenneth's even more absurd assertion that noting should be dropped after A&P, so I wanted to make a general point with my example.
Still, I do think that if a statement such as "noting can be a relaxed practice,
both in Eq and in any other territory" is novel information for you, then there is something in your way of noting which can be substantially improved for your own well-being and progress.
I have personal practice experience changing technique from fast, precise "noticing" (ie, "noting" but without the labeling part) before EQ to something wide, open, and inclusive in EQ. But I also have authority for this view. Therefore, I gave my suggestions to John, the OP. These authoritative sources are not just MCTB, but also MCTB2, Daniel Ingram himself in conversations about this topic, including one yesterday, and Mahasi Sayadaw's Progress of Insight.
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Note that, in the passages I did quote from MCTB2 "Equanimity" draft chapter above, Daniel himself cites authority for his instructions, and that authority is no less than Mahasi Sayadaw's Practical Insight Meditation. As Daniel and I were catching up on editorial matters yesterday in chat, I mentioned this thread and the back and forth over noting in EQ. The first thing he said, without knowing what in MCTB2 I had quoted, was that "Practical Insight Meditation says to stop noting in EQ." I don't know of a more authoritative authority than that for noting practice.
So, although you or anyone may like to believe that I just never got the hang of noting and that is why I suggested to John that, if he should get into EQ on retreat, then he should stop noting---actually I have very good authority for that advice. So my advice is not all that crazy, based on my failures to note, or out of the blue at all. The anomaly, as I understand it from Daniel Ingram, is the person who can use noting up to SE and actually get SE despite that off-instruction use for the noting technique. Perhaps he'll chime in here on this thread when his current run of hospital shifts is complete.
OK, so it seems there is quite some history to the idea of dropping noting in Eq. It raises the interesting question: "Why was that instruction completely dropped in Ajahn Tong's tradition?"
3 obvious possible answers come to my mind:
1) "In practice it was found to be bullshit advice. Students who stop noting just get confused and do... whatever."
2) "It was reasonable advice, but we found a way to effectively do noting, which is now even better than not noting."
3) "Oh, we sort of overlooked that detail. lol. Anyway we're not gonna correct that anytime soon, now our technique has already spread around the globe and spiritual imperium is running well..."
It seems to me that answer (2) is the most reasonable assumption judging by common sense, so the next important question would be: what is the difference here?
On a side note, Practical Insight Meditation may be the most authoritative authority (awesome term btw) there is for noting practice, but really no one (except people who drop the labels) practices according to its actual instructions, see page 4:Never verbally repeat the words, rising,falling, and do not think of rising and falling as words. Be aware only of the actual process of the rising and falling movements of the abdomen.
Anyway, if it is in Practical Insight Meditation, I will obviously not accuse anyone of just making that up.
But is it? I don't know. I failed to find it. I didn't have any reason to doubt what you're saying since I assume that you are a skilled text editor and comprehending texts is something you do for breakfast (not sure if that idiom translates so well.)
I went back to the texts you mentioned which I have available (MCTB1, The progress of insight, practical insight meditation on google books) to copy and quote the relevant passages here for everyone, but I couldn't find them anywhere.
1) MCTB1: The chapter about equanimity doesn't even contain the word 'note'. At least Daniel is still alive, so we can ask him how he meant it. Shouldn't be necessary though, if MCTB2 clarifies it all.
2) Progress of Insight: Now here it's even more obvious. The text often mentions how the meditator is still 'noticing'. Here is the chapter about equanimity, with my highlighting of those instances:
When this knowledge of re-observation is mature, there will arise
knowledge perceiving evident bodily and mental processes in continuous
succession quite naturally, as if borne onward of itself. This is called
"knowledge of equanimity about formations."Now, in the act of noticing, effort is no longer required to keep
formations before the mind or to understand them. After the completion
of each single act of noticing, the object to be noticed will then
appear of itself, and insight knowledge, too, will of itself notice and
understand it. It is as if no further effort need be made by the
meditator. Formerly, owing to seeing the dissolution of formations,
there arose, in successive order, the aspect of fearfulness, the
perception of misery, the aspect of disgust, the desire for deliverance,
and dissatisfaction with the knowledge so far acquired. But now these
mental states no longer arise even though, in the present state too, the
breaking up of formations which are dissolving more rapidly is closely
perceived. Even if a painful feeling arises in the body, no mental
disturbance (grief) arises, and there is no lack of fortitude in bearing
it. Generally, however, at this stage, pains will be entirely absent,
that is, they do not arise at all. Even if the meditator thinks about
something fearful or sad, no mental disturbance will arise, be it in the
form of fear or of sorrow. This, firstly, is "the abandoning of fear"
at the stage of "equanimity about formations."At the earlier stage, on attaining knowledge of arising and passing
away, great joy had arisen on account of the clarity of insight. But now
this kind of joy does not arise, even though there is present the
exceedingly peaceful and sublime clarity of mind belonging to
"equanimity about formations." Though he actually sees desirable objects
conducive to joy, or though he thinks about various enjoyable things,
no strong feeling of joy will arise. This is "the abandoning of delight"
at the stage of "equanimity about formations."He cherishes no desire nor hate with regard to any object, desirable
or undesirable, that comes into the range of his sense doors, but taking
them as just the same in his act of noticing, he understands them (that
is to say, it is a pure act of understanding). This is "equable vision"
at the stage of "equanimity about formations."Of these three qualities just mentioned, it is said in the Path of Purification: "Having discarded fear and delight, he is impartial and neutral towards all formations" (Visuddhimagga, xxi,62).If he resumes the practice of noticing with the thought: "Now I will
do it vigorously again!" then, before long, the noticing will function
efficiently as if borne onward of itself. From now onwards there is no
need for the meditator to make further (deliberate) effort. Though he
does not make a (deliberate) effort, his noticing will proceed in a
continuous and steady flow for a long time; it will go on even for two
or three hours without interruption. This is "the state of long-lasting
(practice)" of equanimity about formations. Referring to this it is said
in the Patisambhidamagga: " 'The wisdom lasting long' is the
knowledge present in the mental states of equanimity about formations."
The Great Commentary to the Path of Purification explains as follows: "This is said with reference to knowledge functioning in a continuous flow."Now when noticing functions spontaneously as if borne onward of
itself, the mind, even if sent out towards a variety of objects,
generally refuses to go; and even if it does go, it will not stay long
but will soon return to the usual object to be noticed, and will resume
continuous noticing. In this connection it was said: "He shrinks,
recoils, and retreats; he does not go forth to it."
3) Practical Insight meditation: Here it's the same case as in the 'Progress of Insight'. See here.
Copying from the pdf partly destroyed the text

I copied it from here, for those who want to check on the source themselves:
https://ia601403.us.archive.org/14/items/bub_gb_M2S-7-lWzHIC/bub_gb_M2S-7-lWzHIC.pdf
When the "knowledge of equanimity about formations"
becomes mature, the mind will be very clear and able to
notice the formations very lucidly.^ Noticing runs smoothly as if
no effort is required. Subtle formations, too, are noticed
without effort. The true characteristics of impermanence,
pain, and no-self are becoming evident without any
reflection. Attention is directed to a particular spot at any
part of thebody wher ever a sensation occurs, but the feeling
of touch is as smooth asthat of cotton wool. Sometimes the
objects to be noticed in the whole body are so many that
noticing has to be accelerated. Both body and mind appear
to be pulling upwards. The objects being noticed become
sparse and one can notice them easily and calmly.
Sometimes the bodily formations disappear altogether
leaving only the mental formations. Then the meditator will
experience within himself a feeling of rapture as if
enjoying a shower of tiny particles of water. He is also
suffused with serenity. He might also see brightness like a
clear sky. These marked experiences, however, do not
influence him excessively. He is not overjoyed. But he still
enjoys them. He must notice this enjoyment. He must also
notice rapture, serenity, and bright light. If they do not
vanish when being noticed, he should pay no heed to them
and notice any other object that arises.
At this Stage he becomes satisfied with the knowledge that there is no I, mine, he, or his, and
that only formations arise;
formations only are cognizing formations.
He also finds delight in noticing the objects one after another.
He is not tired of noticing them for along time.
He Is free from painful feelings. So whatever posture he chooses he can retain it
long. Either sitting or lying he can go on contemplating
for two or three hours without experiencing
any discomfort, spending his time tirelessly. Intending to
contemplate for a while, he may go on for two or three
hours. Even after that time hls posture is as firm as before.
At times formations arise swiftly and he notices them
well. Then he may become anxious as to what would
happen to him. He should notice such an anxiety. He feels
he is doing well. He should notice this feeling. He looks
forward to the progress of insight.
He should notice this anticipation.
Heshould notice steadily whatever arises.
He should not put forth aspecial effort nor relax.
In some cases, because of the anxiety, joy, attachment, or anticipation, noticing
becomes lax and slips back. Some who think that
the goal is very near contemplate with great energy .
While doing so, noticing becomes lax and they slip back. This
happens because a restless mind cannot concentrate
properly on formations. So when noticing is going well the
meditator must go on steadily:that means he should neither
relax nor put forth special effort.
If he does go on steadily. he will rapidly gain Insight into the end of all the
formations and realize NIbbana. In the case of some
meditators, they may, at this stage, rise higher and again
fall several times. They should not give way to despair
but Instead hold fast to determination. Heed must be paid
also to noticing whatever arises at
all
the six sense doors.
However, when noticing goes on smoothly and calmly,
contemplation In such adiverslfied manner is not possible.
So this manner of noticing should begin with gaining
momentum in contemplation until it becomes smooth and calm.
If the meditator begins either with rising and falling of
the abdomen, or with any other bodily or mental object, he
will find that he gains momentum. And then the noticing
will go on of its own accord smoothly and calmly. It will
appear to him that he is watching with ease the ceasing
and vanishing of the formations in aclear manner. At this point his mind is quite free from all the defilements.
However pleasant and Inviting an object may be. It is no longer so to him. Again, however loathsome an object may be, it is no longer so to him.
He simply sees, hears, smells,tastes, feels a touch, or cognizes.
With six kinds of equanimity described in the texts he notices all the
formations. He ls not even awareof thelength of timeheis
engaged in contemplation. Nor does he reflect in any
manner. But If he does not develop sufficient progress of
insighttogain the"knowledgeof thepath and itsfruition"
(maggaar\6 p/7a/a) within two or three hours, concentration
becomes slack and reflection sets in.
On the other hand, If he is making good progress, he
may anticipate further advance. He will become so
delighted with the result that he will experience a "fall."
Then he must dispel such an anticipation or reflection by
directing bare noticing to it.
A steady contemplation will achievesmooth progress again. But if sufficient strength
of insight has not yet been achieved, concentration becomes slack again. In this
way, some meditators progress and fall back several times. Those who are acquainted with
the stages of the progress of insight by way of study (or
by hearing about them) encounter such ups and downs.
Hence it is not good for a pupil who meditates under the
guidance of a teacher to get acquainted with these stages
before meditation begins. But for the benefit of those who
have to practice without the guidance of an experienced
teacher, these stages have been indicated here.
In spite of such fluctuation in his progress the meditator
must not allow himself to be overcome by disappointment
or despair, l-le is now, as it were, at the threshold of the
path and fruit. As soon as the five faculties {indriy^ of
faith, energy, mindfulness, concentration, and wisdom
are developed in an even manner, he will soon reach the path and fruit and realize Nibbana^^
So where does that leave us? Not Sure. If it's in there, I overlooked it, and anyone sees it, please point it out.
As for my practice journal, I began housing it in a private space because some of my practices started going into areas I didn't necessarily want broadcast, since even people at my workplace look at this site from time to time. However, I'll consider posting at least selectively back here if it is helpful and interesting to anyone.
Congratulations, it seems you have cool people at your workplace. (Unless they're stalking you)
Of course that would be appreciated. This place lives on the practice logs, and your experiences seem to differ impressively from everyone else's.
By the way, judging from the entirety of your post, I guess that you feel quite attacked by me. Please drop that idea. In this thread, I've disagreed strongly with you, but I'm not after you. My impression is that you're an intelligent and naturally talented practitioner, and you're doing a great job with MCTB2. I do not think you're delusional or totally incompetent or anything.
I have been ill for 2 weeks, and still haven't fully recovered. After being in the hospital for a week, I finally came back home yesterday only to learn that a close relative had died. I've been on the verge of tears for days. Attacking you really isn't on my agenda. Peace.