Method
The Anger Games
So, Anger, Ill Will. Ill Will, funny, actually willing dis-ease, willing illness, well not funny , funny.
So, here is the Game, and what it did for me.
Finally I got tired of getting angry, and decided to put a stop to it. So, I made it a game, basically the goal was to go 24 hours without having any kind of anger or ill will.
When I first started I would start the 24 hour timer in the morning when I got up and go as long as I could, usually about 10 to fifteen minutes. I know right? Then I felt as if the rest of the day was ruined and what was the point, it was hopeless.
So, then I change the plan, the new plan was to go 24 hours without anger or ill will, and if I got angry or had ill will, I would abandon it asap, and start the timer from that point forward. That is all anyone can do, move on from this point forward. The sooner anger or ill will was abandoned the sooner the clock cold be reset. I did not actually have a stopwatch or anything, I just noted the time in my mind.
Again, same thing , the day would start, anger or ill will would arise, now ill will an anger counts if it is even just at the thought stage for this game, very important, this is no just about external actions, it definitely includes internal thoughts, wishes and judgements.
So, this process was kept rolling along, ill will would get triggered, I would recognize it, abandon it, and start again anew from that moment forward. On and on, all day , every minute, ill will arising over and over, being abandoned over and over, for days, the days turned into weeks, the weeks into months, the progress was slow, the months turned into years, I had alot of anger triggers you see.
Eventually, one day I did notice, Hey, I do not really know when I was angry last. Is that true? I reviewed, yes it was true. Edit, so as to not misrepresent or be misunderstood. Anger does still arise, but usually due to biological threats, continued lack of sleep, extreme unexpected pain. But, anger of that sort is usually a shorter type of outlashing, and fades pretty quickly, i.e. moments and minutes. Though there were and still are irritations. Irritations are like baby angers, they arise weakly and are easlily dismissed.
Irritations can be wiped away like the windshield wipers wipe away raindrops on the car windshield. But, it is also true that some irritations are likenend to bird shit, they do not exactly get wiped away cleanly with one pass of the wipers, but over time they become weakend also, and can eventually be removed.
Now, I am only saying that this method works for normal anger triggers and normal ill will triggers, in normal daily living. I am unsure about not having anger arise if one is subjected by some Mad Scientist on a Torture Rack. But, I am trying to deal with the reality of normal daily life , and normal pragmatic solutions.
Psi
p.s. there are time when normal daily life can be as bad or worse than a torture rack, which, I believe lends sanity and all the more reason to practice now, while we are able, to better deal with reality as it arises moment to moment
Edit as noted above