Hi,Two years ago I was in a Computer Gaming Aaddict Anonymus online program that helped me a lot. They use the A.A model and it mainly work what they call High Power.High Power, God, whatever it is..is where you put your faith and trust, something more bigger than you, something you can feel comfortable and take off all the weight you have and surrender to it.In these online meetings some people have faith in Christian God, some others just in the concept High Power and they do their interpertation, for some ppl was universal love, universal energy, for others was an silent and loving entity that help them (like an angel ) for others was just the community of ppl. High power was not the main topic of the meetings but at sometimes was a topic and and important part of the twelve steps of recovery.For me, what I liked to feel-think was an universal love-energy mixed with some kind of entity that was me but more evolved, This kind of entity can see past-`present-future at the same time and he can only feel pure love and compassion becouse where I am right know, with my struggles, fears, insecuritys he already been there, becouse he is my evolved me, so he exactly knows how I feel, becouse he felt it. So this bring a lot of empathy and compassion.
Also in the proces of conecting with my High Power I had really powerfull dreams that lead me to change a lot of patrons, habits and belif system, not religious or political, core belif system of how I am, and how I understand myself. I have drew this dreams I will upload them if you want hehe. I was in a powerfull healing process that change myself, I also get inspired to started to study really deep how emotions-mind work etcOne of the main practice I was doing was really conected to day to day things, so before I did something, like study, start cooking, work, take a bath etc I stoped and put an intention to conect to my High Power and I was doing this to the benefit of all beings, I usually close my eyes and put my hands looking up and was open to feel the presence/love/compasion of this High Power.The most powerfull thing I did was when I was at work. I worked muffin factory, very no-thinking job, just puting boxes in a pallet for 8 hours. So I spend like 7 hours just blessing and feeling love with the boxes I was touching and conecting with that High Power at the same time, wishing that this muffins can arrive good and the kids or anyone that going to eat it can enjoy it with joy and happiness...well... the waves of joy and love, the openness of the heart I was feeling at some point was so intense and big that I needed to really stop, becouse was not eable to function correctly my whole body was tremble with cold, warm, electrical sensations, my tears fell spontaneously without control. They fired me, lol no, joking haha.So, yes conecting with a High Power can be a really powerfull. I feel I heal a lot of psychological stuff and I had my energys more integrated, more in peace and kind with my self. But If we are talking about insights of ultimate reality...I didnt have it for direct expirence of high power. I had becouse I was working also on observing my emotions and mental process ( didnt know any about buddhist practices at time, I just felt inspired to do it, and did on my way) just trying to understand, observe and feel all the resenment, anger, sadness I had inside. At the end I saw this emotions was just a little part of me, that I was more bigger than this, that my life was conditioned by this feelings and was not worth it, then I can feel sadness but also I can feel my feet planted on the ground, the wind caressing my face, and the sun gently warming my skin, wonderfull times and the end of chapter of my life.