Matthew practice log

Mathew Poskus,修改在5 年前。 at 19-3-30 上午4:53
Created 5 年 ago at 19-3-30 上午4:53

Matthew practice log

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Started TMI but due cannot feel breath in nostrils changed to abdomen ,i reached access concentration ,but now nothing happens ,movements of abdoments and formations of all kind. 
Mathew Poskus,修改在5 年前。 at 19-3-31 下午2:03
Created 5 年 ago at 19-3-31 下午1:48

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It just felt naturally so I sitted with abdomen movements in background ,nothing happening ,from TMI I knowki got too much in peripheral awareness ,so I focused on abdoment movement and out consistently feel like trying to hold a ball underwater so I guess its correct. The mind slowed down and down .If im going not to much in shamatha side ? Can somebody give some advice ?
Mathew Poskus,修改在5 年前。 at 19-4-1 下午12:14
Created 5 年 ago at 19-4-1 下午12:14

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Thank you .
Mathew Poskus,修改在5 年前。 at 19-4-1 下午12:16
Created 5 年 ago at 19-4-1 下午12:16

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Today i did body scanning ,focusing my attention on lower abdomen where I feel pressure causing my frustration ,while imagining my breath going to it and out felt mental pain ,cried ,anger .Probably suppresed emotions.
Mathew Poskus,修改在5 年前。 at 19-4-5 上午6:05
Created 5 年 ago at 19-4-5 上午6:05

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I have social anxiety ,my stomach muscles contracts that makesme feel uncorfotable in social situations and akward ,maybe someone knows how to deal with that? 
Mathew Poskus,修改在3 年前。 at 20-11-11 上午8:17
Created 3 年 ago at 20-11-11 上午8:15

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So I expierenced cessation in resting state there is no "I" arising, its ok, but was expecting more emoticon. Relief. 
Mathew Poskus,修改在3 年前。 at 20-11-13 上午9:17
Created 3 年 ago at 20-11-13 上午9:08

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I never reached results with breath meditation, I followed Khenpo Sharab SenpoTibetan monk instructions, I don't know if I SE,but I expierenced Cessation and No I arises anymore, cause I never expierenced what Shinzen call God's Arrow. Idk.
So I recommend people to check out, who struggles with Breath Meditation this teacher
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FbKG9MSmk0A
Mathew Poskus,修改在3 年前。 at 20-11-15 上午12:31
Created 3 年 ago at 20-11-15 上午12:29

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Ok got breath, concentration got better formations keep changing, reality shifts by itself  what u can as for more, u just sit and reality changes by itself, most satisfying thing after stream before after stream entry. 

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