The neediness for attention might be helped by meditation.

Try to notice how you feel about it. Ask youself "why do I need attention", keep asking because there could be mulitiple layers of answers. Notice if the answers involve "I want ..."  or don't want or like or don't like. Also notice the "I". This "I" arises into consciousness from unconscious processes in the mind (just like every thought emotion, impulse, sense perception). It is an illusion. Revisit this occassionally.

Notice how you feel before you get attention, while you are trying to get attention, while you are getting attention? After you get attention? What causes the feelings? What is associated with the feeling ending?   When you want attention, notice the feeling of wanting. Notice if there is a common aspect to all situations where you feel wanting. What is wanting? Why do you want anything?

Observe (let yourself feel) the feelings that come up from this while relaxing. Notice any feelings in your body that accompany the emotions. Try to stay mindful that you are observing so you can be somewhat detached ie emotions don't take over your mind because you realize they are not reality, just something you are observing that arose from unconscious processes in your mind.

(There is a kind of opposing force between letting yourself feel your emotions and being a detached observer - getting this balance right takes practice and experimentation, too much of either one (wallowing in self pity or suppression) can cause problems.  In my opinion the right balance is the key to getting free from all sorts of emotional baggage - and eventually free from the fetter of identity view. Attachment to self is the hardest emotion to let go of, so practice first on the easier things.)

Otherwise I don't think the question you are asking about is an issue of morality.  It doesn't sound like you are harming anyone, cheating, or gloating.

It is a question of what is best for your progress on the path. Is it hindering you?

My opinion, based what you say in your post, is that you don't need to worry about it.

If you are meditating regularly, eventually you might feel you don't like being competitive and so you stop being competitive because you want to stop, because of how you feel, not because of philosophy. If your motivation is egotistical (attention seeking) stopping could be a sign of progress, if your motivation is to be as fit as possible maybe because it makes you healthy, your feelings might not change.


Enjoy your workouts.

Hi Sushi,
I think competitiveness is totally compatible with a skilful moral code. However i think the word is tarnished with a sense of one upmanship. Rather i think the ideal relationship to being competitive is to focus on bringing out the best skills from yourself, whilst being mindful of not putting others down,. Not with a sense of ego/power trip but rather a sense of compassion for others to do well at the same time. 

I love this interview by Dan Harris with Thupten Jinpa, they talk about the exact same thing around 34.30 mark
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_pYLBF3Uz9E&t=73s

The book "The inner game of tennis" will answer all of your questions about this.

I learned this the hard way, so maybe it will be helpful.... In terms of weight training (and meditation), if you have a well thought out plan for training, then you won't be tempted by trying to achieve "more than the other person" in a single day. You'll think about "what is my workout today that fits into my long-term training plan?' and you'll define success by keeping to your plan. I'll say it again: success is keeping to your plan.

95% of everyone else just "works out hard" (which includes myself for 50 years) and then is too destroyed to keep going for the rest of the week. Or someone with a weak daily sitting practice who goes on a Goenka retreat and then spend the next few months recovering psychologically.

The trick is simple, consistent, non-heroic practice. In exercise physiology, this is known as periodization: If you actually want to get good in a physical skill, then learning about periodization is essential. At least understand that a mesocycle consists of 14 to 21 days of strong training followed by ~7 days of 50% intensity training to allow the body to repair and recover for the next mesocycle.

Random google links, there are many others:
Endurance training: https://www.trainingpeaks.com/blog/macrocycles-mesocycles-and-microcycles-understanding-the-3-cycles-of-periodization/
Weight training: https://breakingmuscle.com/fitness/a-simple-guide-to-periodization-for-strength-training

In meditation periodization is essentially: daily (short) sitting, a few day/weekend retreats, and a yearly long retreat.

Hope this helps in some way. Seriously, read "The Inner Game of Tennis". It's also a great meditation book.